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Name: Scott
Country: United States
State: Michigan
Birthday: 7/9/1983
Gender: Male
Interests: my Heavenly Father and friend, sports, the outdoors, reading, driving, long walks on beaches, sunsets, photography, videography, working outside, and of course my friends.
Expertise: water skiing, snowboading, ice hockey, agressive skating, pole vaulting, rock climbing, and wood working.
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AIM:  boarder7983
Member Since:
4/24/2005
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| OK, so I'm not sure why I've dragged myself down here to type on this again a second night in a row, but for some reason I feel like I've got plenty to say. I went to see heartsong at a local church tonight, so I got to see the lovely Tyler Anderson, and the HOT Nate Weeber. There were girls there too, but they weren't the main attraction...really, for me that's saying something about Ty and Weebs. I am finding that it's hard to explain what I am doing this summer. (this question came up tonight) I really can't explain what I do at camp. Basically I'm a mini John Marquardt (my dad) who is the facilities manager at a camp as well as (for the first year) the director. I will have my hands in a lot of things around camp this summer. As usual, I will have some sort of job with the maintenance crew (i.e. I get to do all the specialty jobs that require thought, not just grunt work, but not too much thought and skill that they require my dad's attention) Then I will be involved in some sort of programming as well. I think I'll be teaching advanced kayaking, helping with games and some other programming. I am afraid that I may also have to be a guy engineer counselor too, which throws a wrench into some of my other summer plans, so who knows. I will also most likely be a counselor for the week of senior high camp. My other plans include being on the ski team with all that entails, pole vaulting weekly with the Newaygo vaulters and if possible hit up the beach vault this summer, I'd like to continue my reign at number 1 at the local kayak race, and I'd really like to do a triathlon or two. I must say that it all sounds like a lot, but I guess that's how my summer's go...they don't slow down, they just keep going at the pace of school...just in a more physically demanding way. Take Luck. | | |
| Whoa...it's Wednesday already, where has the time gone? Well for one, I've been working...monday I burned the wooddump, yesterday I painted the lodge floor and worked in the attic of the pole building, and today I painted the lodge floor again, and blew insulation into the pole bldg. Why write all that stuff? Probably because I really felt like today was tuesday because this week has flown by. I was coaching pole vaulting today, and one of the vaulters asked me what day it was to which I replied wednesday having had to ask Todd earlier. He responded by saying he had to come to our house for ski practice. I still haven't gotten into summer mode and it's becoming increasingly more obvious. We have ski practice already??? That went well and I am much more pumped about this year's show than ever before this early in the season. (shoot, we don't even have our dock in yet!) We still have so much "spring cleaning" to do when it comes to so much at camp. We've got leaves everywhere, painting to do, and did I mention the grass needs to be cut? I haven't even finished settling into my room yet! I have moved three times in the last month and it's killing me! From Costa Rica to Spence's to home has been nuts. Everything of mine is mixed up, it's either in the I'm-not-taking-it-to-Costa-Rica-pile, the Costa Rica/School pile, or the I-need-to-get-rid-of-it-pile. How am I ever going to get organized!!! Speaking of moving...Olman apparently just moved. Well, he probably moved a while ago, but since my computer is dumb and I can't access my school email account from home, I have to go to the library to check mail....yeah, and I don't do it often either. Let's see, I've been on my home computer...4 times since I've been home because without email what's the point, not that I care much about email in the summer...I have freakin' dial-up anyway, so I don't get on nearly as often as my 5 times a day at the 'Ville. So, my life seems to be whizzing by and it's scaring me. Seriously, I know my life is a vapor, and I've been reminded of it a lot lately, but I really want to do something with my vapor. If I have but a breath in life, then I want it to mean something for eternity. I think that's why I have enjoyed helping with the vaulting at my old high school...building into those kid's lives seems like the most important thing I've done all week. I think it's been really hard for me to just go through life the last couple of weeks simply existing. I would seriously struggle if I wasn't working, but at the same time I stop and think "where'd the time go?" How can I wish for summer to "officially" start (camp begins) yet I don't want to waste all the time in between just working my tail off and not doing anything that will matter for eternity. It's killing me, man! ok enough circular talk out of me...I've got to jet anyway...I have to get up earlier tomorrow to get an earlier start on the work day. | | |
| So I've been wrestling with myself on what to do in life. I have my summer figured out, I have next fall figured out (except for housing), I even have some ideas as to what I will do after college, but I feel uprooted and unhappy about it. I don't understand what's going on with me. Basically, I'm a head case, and I haven't been able to come to a resolution yet, so my brain really has been going non-stop for about three weeks. This is what I HAVE figured out.
1. I failed field experience - there are multiple reasons/excuses I could give for this failure, but basically I wasn't ready or up to par...I hate failure which is why I try to avoid it, but this was unavoidable; God needed to use it to get a hold of me.
2. I went to Costa Rica - God took my student teaching overseas from me, but salvaged it by allowing me to "pilot" my way into an overseas internship which gave me the opportunity to learn and grow in ways I can't explain. I also found direction that had been lacking before...I want to teach...before I wasn't sure, now I am.
3. I am going to return to Cedarville - I have a lengthened student teaching experience to make up for my failed field...basically it will be more difficult and I'll be pulling my hair out for longer.
4. I graduated from Cedarville - I walked at graduation...I have enough credits for an army now, why not. It was surreal, here I was graduating, but I am coming back in 3 months for more. I was saying good bye to my senior friends, but I was staying behind instead of going separate ways.
5. I have options when I graduate for real - I can get a job...unlikely in the winter, but not impossible. I can get a subbing job...I don't like it, but I can't afford to not get some sort of income. I can go back to Costa Rica...I love it there, they don't pay well, but some pay is better than no pay. Then I could get a real teaching job in Michigan or Ohio or any number of other states in order to pay off my huge school debt.
That's all I know...God knows the rest, God could change all of that, and God knows best. I guess I've been struggling because my mind is having a hard time wrapping itself around the fact that I failed a long time ago, but I'm still paying for my failure, and will be for another semester, and possibly another half year, which is pretty scary. I have been thinking so long term because I've been blasted by the reality of certain life choices and events. It has my head spinning, yet tomorrow will be so easy. I have no problem taking one day at a time, it's when I think about more than that when I get into trouble. | | |
| Wow, time flies when you don't sit down and write it all down. I think writing about my days has helped me to process what went on in my day. So...It's been too long since my last post seeing as how it seems like today's post should be about my last day at school in Costa Rica, but it's actually almost two weeks later. My last day was hard...hard to say goodbye to all the people I had the pleasure of working and serving with for the last few months. It was hard to say goodbye to some of my students as well...especially the ones I had class with almost everyday and my troublemakers. I had several students come up to me and apologize for things they'd said, or how they'd acted in my class, which both surprised me and almost made me cry. It meant a lot, let me tell you. The following day, I went out with one of my friends from school to see Ice Age 2, which happens to be one of the funniest movies I've seen in a long time. Then I went straight from there to pick Mom and Dad up from the airport. I won't bore you with the details of my last couple days, but it was awesome to show my parents around. We ate well, enjoyed relaxing days in the sun, went on a canopy tour, and they were able to experience some of the uncomfortable parts of Costa Rica as well...the bus ride home being just one of them.
Wednesday, we went to the airport wicked early and I waved them off, then waited 4 hours for my own flight home. Meanwhile I experienced some of the moments Tom Hanks had in The Terminal, as well sat across from Miss Costa Rica at Gate 5. The flights went well, and the only empty seat on the plane was the one next to me...on both flights! I sat with a teacher on the second flight and got to talk about teaching for quite a while...it was good. Then I met two goofballs in the airport in Columbus (Todd and Justin), and we got my luggage...well we tried...my smaller bag had been left in Houston, so we had it sent to Spence's. Then I headed to campus, spent the night in Brock, went to chapel, and left for a track meet in Indiana before finally getting home. I was seriously experiencing some reverse culture shock...everything was going so fast, but after a couple days at home I was back to normal.
I've been on campus for a week, and I thought I would start to get bored, but I've stayed busy for a whole week just trying to get stuff straightened out with graduation, next year, finances, and living arrangements. Friday night I worked the pole vault pit, and Saturday I enjoyed the beautiful weather watching the rest of the meet.
ELLIV was great...really, I enjoyed it a lot despite some technical difficulties that marred it. I thought it was well put together, and I think the acts were spectacular as well as the hosts.
Last night as I walked back to Spence's after ELLIV I thought about the on-going joke about me finding a girl in Costa Rica. No, I didn't fall in love with someone while I was down there, I fell in love with everyone down there. I miss the people I was with immensely. I never thought that I'd miss Spanish so much, but I speak it whenever I get a chance. I just found out that my team (La Liga) lost in the championship game last night, (2-1) but the were playing Saprissa the best team in Costa Rica right now, so I don't feel bad. Oddly enough two of my students' father starts for the championship team.
It has been a crazy and wicked fast week, but I must say that it is good to be back. I missed my friends and the U.S. isn't a bad place, so it's been all right. I'd like to go back to C.R., it's only a matter of time til I go back again. | | |
| yeah, so today we had two 4th grade girls sneak off campus. We didn't know where they went for about 5 hours, so it was a bit of a scare. We didn't know if someone just kidnapped them, if they left on their own will, or if they got picked up later. They were found a little after school was over by the security, but it was not a good thing, and the school will definitely have to address the issue. The girls...one a leader, the other a follower. The leader is crazy...really crazy. Like she cut her hair and cut her gym warm up pants into shorts...serious rebellion and near insanity...not a good combination. Welp...I've gotta go...I'm wicked tired and I need to get ready for my last day. | | |
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